Progress

I am still here. I am still progressing little by little on my sea-faring journey. I am volunteering and doing some theory classes and my motivation is still high. I am still determining where all this is going but I have made some great new friends and had some really wonderful moments this year. 

At first, I felt like I had something to prove in returning to the sea, but another part of me realised that perhaps it is better to not be the best. I have a lot to learn. It is difficult. I am not great at maths and my understanding of navigation and chart reading will take time. But my volunteering group is very supportive and I let go of having high expectations of myself. 

I was also surprised to realise that I was not as keen on dingy sailing as I had been as a child. I found being so low in the water sparked a lot of anxiety for me. I have changed so much for that 12-year-old girl, and on some level, I felt some grief over it. But then I had some wonderful times on the power boat. Perhaps that is more my kind of thing, now.